Called... and Chosen?

I realized today that I was angry at God. Much like marriage, you can still be upset with your spouse, but still honor them the same, still obey them, still love them, all the while being frustrated by something they did or said. Or like me, you can be angry and not even know it. “Many are called but few are chosen.” Matthew 22:14. A scripture we love to quote when life gets tough and you’re still required to act accordingly. What happens when that scripture is not enough? What happens when you’re still angry or frustrated at your set of circumstances? We like to talk about being called or chosen but what about called AND chosen. What about the requirements of being both? What about the pain of being both? What about the unfairness of being both? No matter how angry I am with God guess who is stuck with the pain? Today I sat at the altar and said I will not leave until I am at a resolve. And guess what my resolve is? Another layer of circumcision. I can’t go into this next season with anger at my Source. I have to come to the resolve that no matter how much it hurts, it’s a process I must endure. No matter how ugly, I must submit. Being called and chosen is not for the faint at heart. It’s not for the double minded. You have to make a decision everyday to serve the Lord with gladness. I had made up in my mind that I would never get to a place again where I was mad at God. Being mad with God is okay- just don’t let the sun go down on your wrath. Resolve it, move forward, and stay close.